a beautiful morning (and bitter cold) in New Hampshire.
Didn't weigh this morning, I realized after eating breakfast that I forgot. I decided not to jump on the scales after eat/drinking. It would depress me LOL.
I feel great. I'm starting to lose the "fat girl" mentality that i've carried with me my entire life. I have only 17 lbs til goal. 17 more lbs and I will weigh 120. I cannot wait. I am absolutely thrilled.
In 8th grade I dieted and got down to 161. That was the lowest I remember being. At the time I was so excited. I love looking back and realizing I'm 24 lbs UNDER my lowest (14-year-old) weight.
I was led to believe my whole life by my family that I simply have a large frame, and it's ok to be a little on the heavy side.
But I've been tooling around with
http://www.dietandfitnesstoday.com/bodyFrame.php and realized I have a small, teetering on medium frame. My wrist is a little over 5.5" around, which is actually pretty tiny.
I never thought my body was capable of getting to such a low weight but I am a believer. Once I get to 120, I'll decide if I'd like to lose a couple more lbs or just work on toning. Or both. Being 5'4, it wouldn't be a rediculous goal to weigh 115. It would put my BMI at the lower end of a healthy "normal" weight, but I am not going to change my goal until I reach my initial one.
I'm waiting til the last second before Jamaica to buy a bathing suit. Depending on how I feel about my body, I may go for a bikini. Luckily, being 19 I don't have a problem with extra skin because I have so much elasticity in mine. I'm getting my belly button pierced the weekend of Valentine's day (it's my BF's present to me!) and I actually can't wait!
I never DREAMED of showing off my stomach, but I'm beginning to love my body. It still needs a little work and I definitely have some left to lose, but I'm getting there. and I WILL get there.
Hope all is well!