a beautiful morning (and bitter cold) in new hampshire.
Didn't weigh this morning, i realized after eating breakfast that i forgot. I decided not to jump on the scales after eat/drinking. It would depress me lol.
I feel great. I'm starting to lose the "fat girl" mentality that i've carried with me my entire life. I have only 17 lbs til goal. 17 more lbs and i will weigh 120. I cannot wait. I am absolutely thrilled.
In 8th grade i dieted and got down to 161. That was the lowest i remember being. At the time i was so excited. I love looking back and realizing i'm 24 lbs under my lowest (14-year-old) weight.
I was led to believe my whole life by my family that i simply have a large frame, and it's ok to be a little on the heavy side.
But i've been tooling around with
http://www.dietandfitnesstoday.com/bodyframe.php and realized i have a small, teetering on medium frame. My wrist is a little over 5.5" around, which is actually pretty tiny.
I never thought my body was capable of getting to such a low weight but i am a believer. Once i get to 120, i'll decide if i'd like to lose a couple more lbs or just work on toning. Or both. Being 5'4, it wouldn't be a rediculous goal to weigh 115. It would put my bmi at the lower end of a healthy "normal" weight, but i am not going to change my goal until i reach my initial one.
I'm waiting til the last second before jamaica to buy a bathing suit. Depending on how i feel about my body, i may go for a bikini. Luckily, being 19 i don't have a problem with extra skin because i have so much elasticity in mine. I'm getting my belly button pierced the weekend of valentine's day (it's my bf's present to me!) and i actually can't wait!
I never dreamed of showing off my stomach, but i'm beginning to love my body. It still needs a little work and i definitely have some left to lose, but i'm getting there. And i will get there.
Hope all is well!