[7Miriam]

I am loosing my way. I lost 65 pounds, and now in the last two and a half days I've gained 6 pounds. I'm totally off track and eating all this bad stuff for me, and am going to be off all day today too since I've not done any preparation for the week and don't have appropriate food - and just b/c I know I will eat poorly again today. I feel stuffed and yucky. I'm in tears while writing this.

My husband may be loosing his job (b/c his employer is not doing well do to the economy), and things are so, so stressful for me now. He was blaming me for all his problems at work - but last night he finally said it was not all my fault an unfair what he was saying.

I feel so lost and afraid that if I can't find a way back soon I will undo all the good I have done for myself - but things are so hard at home now, I just don't know if I can get back on track soon. I know I should be stronger than this - but he is just wearing me down. He says he will try to stop, but he is in so much pain I don't know if he can.