[kibskix]

My boyfriend wants me to go tubing down the river this summer, and i initially told him noooo friggin way. there's no way i'd be out in PUBLIC in a bathing suit, i havent even worn shorts in years. and living in texas, thats saying a lot about how i felt about my body. i used to fake a fear of water when i was younger so people wouldn't invite me to water parks. you'll find though that even just losing a little bit of weight, or getting in the habit of working out for a few weeks makes you look better and feel more confident even not at your goal weight. the bf is one of those shameless guys who will just wander around the house naked if you let him, and while he's certainly seen me sans-clothes, i certainly dont feel comfortable running around nude with him lol, i still turn my back to him when i change clothes. i bugs him, but the more i lose, the less i'm worried about my weight and the more proud i am that i've -lost- weight. it'll get easier, i promise! if you go swimming, i'll get up the courage to go workout at the gym in front of strangers *gasp* lol