I totally understand and agree that it's a mind set. I have found with all of my girlfriends is that we need motivation! Easy motivation is after a break-up/divorce etc or a big upoming even - when we are comfortable we tend to lose that drive. So you need to create a little drive and change your frame of mind - it's great if your frame of mind can be focusing on your health, but that may not always be the first thing that comes to mind - so while it may sound materliastic to some - the simple fact that you enjoyed shopping for smaller clothes can be your 1st incentive. I understand it's not the food choices - but the feeling that you can't have control over what you eat because some people can eat anything and be thing while you have to be restricted - but restricted doesn't mean it has to be not yummy, great food. Once you get going your taste buds and thoughts will be different and you won't feel deprived. So hang in there