[lindsayanne0]

Yesterday I was at a performance (I'm a singer) and my daughter video taped me. Last night, my husband and I sat down to watch the performances and see how the video turned out. I was almost in tears watching it. I swear that when I look in the mirror I have a totally different perception of myself than when I see pictures of me! I was so unhappy with how out of shape and bulgy and flabby and chunky I was!!! It was so upsetting. I usally avoid the camera so haven't seen a picture of myself in awhile. It didn't look like I had made any changes since starting Atkins at all. I went to bed last night disgusted with myself.

I restarted atkins a few weeks ago (after two not so sucessful tries) - I've only lost 3 lbs so far (which constantly bounces around from no loss to 3 lbs) and no inches. But last night I realized I'm really not taking any of this seriously!!! I AM eating the right things, with a few corrections here and there, but I know I haven't been exercising. Maybe this is what's holding things back?? I know some people can lose without it - but perhaps, I can't. This has GOT to be the missing ingredient...I hope.

Quite honestly, I hate 'exercising'. Even though, I packed my gym bag today to go to the gym this afternoon. And I signed myself up to start a water aerobics class next week. I do LOVE swimming. I'm a little nervous about the class to be honest. Just don't know what to expect I guess as I've never taken one. Don't know if I signed up for the right level. It said "Classics - beginning aerobic, stretching, and toning". Will I be surrounded by a bunch of older people?? Or cardio training gurus? I get intimidated kind of easily. Anyway, I'm glad I'm signed up because now I HAVE to go!

I'm hoping that in a few weeks time, I will finally see some change!