[imagood1]

I have many anniversaries throughout the year - Cancer survivor anniversaries (2 time survivor) - marriage anniversaries - divorce anniversaries (being married 3 times helps get the total up), but July has a couple more than other months.

Mom had the Cancer surgery that saved her life 5 years ago this month - things have never been the same but she has her life and for that we are thankful. I'm sure there are times she wishes she had her old life but some things are not meant to be - she is alive - that is what matters.

Today - July 4th - is my 3 year anniversary -- 3 years ago this morning I woke up, tore my last pack of cigarettes in half, threw away all the ashtrays and lighters.....I have never looked back - it was the best decision I could make for my health at that time. Those first couple days were not fun (cold turkey is a killer) but after those first few days I was ok. I only tried to stop smoking twice -- the first time I used the losenges but they made me lightheaded and sick to my stomach and 3 days later I was back to smoking 3 packs a day. I must admit when I smell someone smoking it still appeals to me (the smoke smell - not the act of smoking) but I've not waivered. 3 years ago this was the only thing I had on my mind.....

3 years later I am 6 months into another health decision -- this time it's my weight. I need to get my mind back in the game and back on the prize!! I measured this morning for the 6WEC (thought it was Sunday) - I've only lost 2-1/4 pounds since this challenge started but they were from my waist, which is where I carry the bulk of my weight so it's a good thing!

I haven't lost any weight in this 6 weeks and I know it's because I'm not in the right frame of mind! I am going to spend some time re-reading DANDR and find my way back. I'm feeling lost right now.