Yes it's hard to loose weight...it's one of the hardest things you will do. What has helped me is to understand this isn't a diet...it's the way I choose to eat now. When people are sitting around me gorging on foods I don't eat it doesn't bother me because they have a choice and I have a choice also. I chose to eat that way for years and because of it I look, feel and have the medical problems I have now because of it. I also can contribute all the bad to sitting around feeling sorry for myself and eating more to make the bad feelings go away. I'm not going to lie to you and say it's fun because it isn't - I AM happy with the way I feel now because it's so much better than before.
When you get up every morning find the strength to eat the right foods, exercise (the rowing did you a world of good wether you know it or not), drink all the water you can (at least 64 ounces of pure water). Do everything you can do within your power to succeed. No one can do this for you -- this is a very lonely thing to do.
You have children and a husband who depend on you -- but unless you can depend on yourself to loose the weight and get healthy you can't do the best for them. This was the hardest thing for me to come to terms with -- my ailing mother and husband with heart problems live with me...I am the only driver in the household so no one goes anywhere without my help. So, in a way it's like having 2 small children who need me .... like your children need you.
If you need to talk there are so many people here -- we are all in the same boat as you...all struggling to loose our weight, the ones who have lost are trying to maintain their loss. It's a long hard struggle but have some faith in yourself. Give yourself time to loose this weight. Stay off the scales - take your measurements - live the plan and it will work for you.
Good luck!!!
