[Ammamady]

I can't tell you how happy I am that you started this thread! I would venture to guess that this issue is the single most common issue that doesn't come up when people discuss struggles with weight.

Unless having gone through it, it is hard to understand the physical sensation of that fear; the trembling, wanting to wrap my arms around my body, wanting to shrink into the ground. DanieJim- I think the situation you just described relates exactly to everone else's. Sure, sexual abuse may be different than the threat of violence, but it is a very similar trauma response.

Gaynora, I think you are right, I have to just decide that he can no longer have any control over my life. I don't just mean in a general sense. I mean I think about him and his comments and his body all the time when I look in the mirror and see a fat person. That is the power that he doesn't deserve and should have never gained. He has NO place in my life or thoughts anymore, and I won't allow him in...

I won't!