[lc_angel_08]

This post could not have come at a better time for me. I woke up this morning got on the scale and had one of thoese I am so frustrated I just want to cry moments. As I looked down at the number on the scale I thought why am I doing this working out everyday trying so hard to keep my food on track and I am still not losing weight. After I sat down and had a nice long cry I had to get back to reality and realize if I am struggling with my weight now just to maintain it and I am faithfully putting in 30 minutes on my treadmill almost everyday plus weight training 3 or more days a week and I am trying hard to keep my food in check imagine what my weight would be otherwise. The last 5 years have been a constant struggle for me with my weight. 5 years ago I developed life threatening anemia. Because of my inability to barely walk 10 feet without passing out for 6 months I gained almost 50 pounds and my bodyfat rose to a dangerously high 49%. I also developed several conditions including hypothyrodism that make losing that weight very hard for me. its a daily struggle for me just to maintain my wieght much less lose more. Anyway to make this long story shorter I had to realize that right now for me maybe I need to change the focus of my goals. I can only control what I can control. What that number on the scale says is something I can not control and I just need to accept that as the fact it is. What I can control however is working out faithfully atleast 5 days a week. I can control the food I choice to eat, I can control the amount of water I drink And finally I can control how I choose to define success. So from today on I am going to try my best to stop looking at what I can't control that number on the scale and start judging my success or failure by the things I can control. As long as I am meeting my exercise and diet goals I am going to learn to be happy with that.