[Esteliana]

Lol! Of course you can still stay an atkinite. What made you think I would kick you out? Ha ha.

Well last night I honestly had no appetite and my best friend was chowing down on oreo's right in front of me and drinking coke. I didn't fall in to temptation whatsoever. I'm quite proud of myself for not doing so because I normally do, especially if I'm in a morose mood and what not. But I felt better after a while and I feel fine today. I just had a lot to think about during the night and I think I might have figured out a few things before that I probably wouldn't have if I didn't have an awesome talk with my best friend about everything. =)

I'm going to do everything I want for me, not for anyone else. And controlling what I eat is only part of it, the other part is a bit more personal. And all I can say to that is, he will no longer control me anymore!! I've had enough of being afraid and fearing guilt and shame. No more of that BS. It's time for me to grow up and move on! It will be hard, but I know I can do it.

-Bekka