[nturtle]

I COMPLETELY hear you on the 'biggest girl here' thing. And my DH says the same thing; that I'm beautiful and sexy. And I know that should matter most, but he's a football coach and his players are young and in shape and would never look at a woman like me to date - and I'm embarrassed for my husband. I want to be someone he's proud of being with in front of these guys. Its not logical, not rational, not very healthy, but I can't pretend its not part of my motivation.

On the other hand I like to tell myself all of my accomplishments and acknowledge that I'm working on my figure. I know I've got lots to offer that is way more than skin deep and in time my outside will match the beauty within. My husband will be envied then!!! And yours will be too! That's what I tell myself to get over that particular hurdle.