Thanks, man.
Its really hard to stay positive some days; today was one of those days.
DH made me promise I wouldn't walk or jog today because my foot hurt so bad all night. So I didn't and what did I get in return? More pain. I dunno. I think the odds of me doing that March 1 marathon are slim to none based on how I feel right now.
True, I am a warrior...comprised of little athleticism but a whole lot of tenacity. But the grim reality is, I am 8 weeks post-op and still in alot of pain.
Perhaps I went into the surgery with my expectations too high .. I dunno. Sure, I had pain for nearly 2 years but I COULD STILL RUN ... albeit slowly and rather UGLY...but I WAS OUT THERE. Now, I just get frustrated trying. If I didn't love it so dadgummed much, I'd throw in the sweat towel RIGHT NOW. The logical part of my brain tells me to...my SPIRIT says, YOU CAN OVERCOME....yeah ....can I ?
It all seems so unfair, doesn't it. Alot of people hate to run, wouldn't even want to ... they turn their noses up at the very idea ... and they're pain-free and CAPABLE ...
I love it; I live for it; I find my true inspiration when I'm out there ... oh sure, I'm not gifted like Steve Prefontaine or Jesse Owens .. I'm not RICHF .... I'm just a late-bloomin' runner who discovered at middle age that she still *had it* within her to try .. to push hard .. and to discover she could do what in years prior she would never have attempted ... only to get injured and end up painfully sidelined ....
Gad what a depressing post. Sorry you had to read it.
I wish somebody could say, 'hey Betty, yanno what ? Come November or December, your foot will be 100% again, and you'll be out there relishing the run again, PAINFREE ...."
I'd give anything for that.
Betty