25 Oct 09

Mood: Focused


Weight: 147 (no change, BUT not surprised AND thankful I didn’t gain any back)

Exercise: None

Water Intake - 100oz water/green tea

What did I eat today?


Breakfast – 2 scrambled eggs with ¼ cup cheddar cheese, mushrooms and onions

Snack: 2 stalks of celery with cream cheese

Lunch – Leftovers from yesterday - London broil w/ peppers

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I feel all alone in this world. While watching the locator I got upset about a mom who just walked away from her daughter for over 30 years.
I need to deal with some child hood issues but when having to confront the mom who turned the other way while stuff was going on and then when I told her about things she said I was lying. I try to forgive her and have even been to hypnosis to forgive her but nothing works.
I dont feel like rehashing 30 years of pain with her and...

I weighed in a couple of days ago at 160 lbs, and there I've stayed. I've not been eating properly, although I'm not eaten anything high in carbs. I really need to get myself back on track, but I need to get my mind functioning first.

The worst parts about our relationship being over are the fact that he was my best friend, and I've lost him. He hasn't spoken to me since he broke up with me (despite promising he would, as he has a lot he needs to sort out with me - ie. financially)...