I am trying to lose weight again. I'm the heaviest I've ever been in my life at 24 years old and I fear my weight will slowly continue to crawl if I don't do something about it. It's fair to say that at this point I hate myself. I don't know who I am when I look in the mirror sometimes; all i see is shame, embarrassment, discuss...

Christmas eve is tomorrow and I can't fit into anything I own. Looks like it's sweatpants again this year.

I think this is my third attempt...