It's been 2 weeks now since we broke up, and I'm finally eating 3 meals a day again, back with a relatively healthy appetite, and with the mindset that I can get back on track. I'm over the initial hurt and pain, and unlike last time I have avoided contact with him. It hurts, but I know that its for the best to just cut off all contact with him. I spent a year crying over him before, watching him date other people, hearing all about his new girlfriend, before he decided he was ready to get back...

I weighed in a couple of days ago at 160 lbs, and there I've stayed. I've not been eating properly, although I'm not eaten anything high in carbs. I really need to get myself back on track, but I need to get my mind functioning first.

The worst parts about our relationship being over are the fact that he was my best friend, and I've lost him. He hasn't spoken to me since he broke up with me (despite promising he would, as he has a lot he needs to sort out with me - ie. financially)...

Life is just not working out right now. After all the problems I had 2 weeks ago, my fiance broke up with me last night. This happened 3 years ago, we got back together after a while and things were going to well, but he just says he doesn't want this relationship anymore, doesn't want me, doesn't want to think about settling down, getting married or having kids until much later in life.

I feel so beat up over it. I've forgiven him for so much over the years, and while I respect the...

After all the trauma that happened last weekend, I weighed back in at 170 lbs. However, since getting the go ahead from my doctor on Wednesday to resume any dieting, I restarted (yet again!) and today I stand at 165 lbs. My goal for this week, even before I found out I was pg, was 163 lbs, so I'm only 2lbs up from that! Next week's goal is 160 lbs, and I'm positive I can shift another 5 lbs by then with induction.

I am going back to see my doctor tomorrow morning, since she gave me...

Anyone fancy that job? haha Maybe I can't afford to pay anyone that kind of money, but I sure do wish I could pay someone to just FORCE me to do this right!

I have been trying to get back on track since I got back from the hospital on Monday, but I just can't get into the right mindset. I did so well all day yesterday, then went grocery shopping after work and cracked. Ate an entire Terry chocolate orange egg. The brits here will know what that is, and will probably lash out at me...