CC ROLL CALL - Wednesday Oct. 28th

[Sarina D]

Originally Posted by RitaCeleste

Yeah, Sarina D, the last little bit stinks! I have cheated with stupid stupid things this week. Part of my problem is my ex is freaking out about my goal weight of 130. I'd quit at 135 or something happily. I'm not happy to quit with this belly roll though. Part of it is now I look in the mirror and what I see looks okay in clothes. I go out and look at people, some are bigger, some are smaller. The pounds do not want to come off at this point. I can't stand it going so slow. I can maintain 150 easily, its just getting off the last little bit. What happened to my motivation? Grrrrrr! I just go up and down the same few pounds. Oh, well. I've been struggling to get motivated for awhile. Some days I think "just maintain". Some days I think there must be a crash diet way to get the last little bit off! If I could get sneaky and get the weight off quickly maybe Craig would stop pestering me to stop dieting. He is offering to buy me clothes in this size. If I get those clothes, I'll want to be able to wear them awhile. He is tricky and he likes me this size. Maybe this why I never dropped below 145 since I was a teen?

Hi Rita,

Thank you for stopping by and taking the time to talk Rita, I need it.

I totally hear you....these are the most difficult last few pounds to lose...I visited with my doctor today and he reiderated this fact (he told me this last year too). Apparently the last 10 -30 are the most difficult and do take time. I am like you....I look fine in the clothing but I have the "tummy buldge" that drives me insane and even if I was at 140 lbs right now....I'd probably be FIGHTING to get rid of it (tummy buldge). I think though if I was at 140 lbs (man alive I hope to see that day) I think it would just be a matter of losing maybe 5 more pounds and working hard to tone (based on my height) but yes indeed I totally can relate to you.

My doctor warned me last year that there would be some people who would not support me at this point and would want the "old" Sarina back....it seems like these people are coming out of the woodwork now trying to convince me to stay at the weight I am presently (very much like what you're going through) and for me, this is the last thing I need to hear at the moment....I think I'm at the point where I see the finish line and I'm looking for that 2nd wind ....a bit of a push to get there so I asked my doctor if for the next few months I could go in and speak with him once a month just regarding my weight.

I have something to add to this post but it will have to wait till later...I have to sign off for now suddenly.

Thank you so very much Rita for writing to me and being so supportive....I was really needing to talk lastnight....I will respond more to you in the next few hours....

Hugs,
Sarina
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Heaviest weight - 403 lbs. (2007)
April 1, 2008 - 387 lbs. (This is when I initially started to lose weight…but was not on Atkins at this point)
Atkins start weight – 347 lbs. (July 19, 2008 – began Atkins)
1st major goal met -----100 lbs. lost as of Oct 2, 2008 - Hit 300 lbs. on this day – From April 1-08 when I initially begin to lose weight.
2nd major goal met - 151 lbs. lost as of Jan 13, 2009 - Hit 249 lbs. on this day.
3rd major goal met - Wed, May 13-09 - Reached losing 200 lbs. in just over a year and a couple of months.
4th major goal met – Reached “Onederland” June 6-09 – 198 lbs.
5th major goal met - My 1 yr. Atkins anniversary - Weighing 184 lbs. this day
Current weight – 174 lbs.
Goal weight - 150 – 160

My personal journey - Before and during - From 400 lbs. to 247 lbs. Not done yet!!!