funk vs depression

I never thought I would say this ..but you guys I am in a funk ..I feel kind of depressed!!! once in a while I feel like this in life ... but it has been a while now ... a few years ago when I changed jobs and it did not work out I thought I was really depressed....and once in a while I feel down for a day or two but seem to pop right back ...

now I just feel this heaviness again and it has been over a week.....last time I felt this way... I choose to embrace it..go ahead and not fight the feelings I had ..cry if I wanted to ...pout if I wanted to ..and make no sense if I wanted to... and circled a date on the calendar six weeks out with the self contract of "if I still have these feelings when such and such date arrives.. I am going to go see someone ....until then I am going to do whatever I can to just get through this on my own"

so here I am again ....and I am doing the same thing ...six weeks from when this started if I am not feeling better I will go see someone ...and get help ..

until then I am publically acknowledging ..I feel like shiit ...

please I am not asking for pity or anything I just want people to know that this does happen to people all the time and sometimes I think it is very important to seek out and get help ...but at the same time getting over feeling like this yourself can be just as important as long as you feel safe and if it is not really interfearing with your quality of life ...

for me I still get dressed have great hygeine ..try to look nice when I go out the door ...I am still laughing at ironies in life and enjoying my family and friends....and by no means sleeping too much ...all the signs that I told my husband to watch me for...I just feel sad and like a weight is hanging over me ...

that is why I think I am having a funk vs clinical depression..but I am also a nurse and as such we are either neurotic or in denial..usually I take the latter....

thank you for listening to me I will just keep watching for the sunshine again and hope this sharing helps someone else break a funk ..cause they suck and are a total bummer

[changing]

I so know where you are. I haven't mentioned this on the boards yet (I think), but I have bipolar disorder (triggered by past diet pill abuse) so I totally understand... Atkins helped me to smoothe out my ups and downs without meds, but I still am a rather moody person. I know you know this, but I'm just going to say it's okay to ask for help. That's why help is out there. It's also okay to wait... but if it gets any worse, please go see someone.

Feel better soon!

[jimmie 48]

me too heidi, me too. my sister buds have listened to me all week. let us know when the sun shines again for you then send it east, okay?

thanks you guys I am going to ask for help if I feel anything insurmountable that is for sure

I think I would feel worse if it was not for my coworkers also saying they felt in a funk the past couple of weeks...

I don't watch news or read the papers ..I am eating well and trying to move my body...drinking water and trying to keep positive ..it is more like me to be on the manicy side of life then the depressed side that is for sure....

one of the girls I work with told me she had a dream I had breast cancer and demanded I go get a mammogram ASAP that does not help this feeling at all!!! I am hoping it is a false premonition!!!! good grief!!!!

[Atkid]

Hang in there Heidi! I tend to get in those moods every now and again, especially when the weather turns hot. Think about the happy things in your life right now, like your upcoming wedding for your daughter (could be a cause of stress that is causing it?),
Don't worry... be happy!

PS)You due your mammogram?

Originally Posted by Atkid

Hang in there Heidi! I tend to get in those moods every now and again, especially when the weather turns hot. Think about the happy things in your life right now, like your upcoming wedding for your daughter (could be a cause of stress that is causing it?),
Don't worry... be happy!

PS)You due your mammogram?

yeah I am due :P last year they evacuated the building durning my mammogram while my boob was in the machine the tech took my clothes ran out the door and left me topless stuck there (I had just dropped the gown because it seemed to get in the way so that was not an option either) ..I had to run out with a pillow case ..that was nice

thanks Atkid you guys are awesome

oh yeah and about my daughters wedding ..the plans are still changing ...OMG kids can make you mental as well!!!

[Laurenfra]

KIDS WEDDINGS WILL DO IT EVERY TIME. So will kids messing with my font making it permanent caps. We're here if you need to chat. Its nice knowing we all feel this way sometimes

[Laurenfra]

By the way! I love your before after pic. Its nice to see how far others have come.

[Barbde]

Hang in there girlfriend!! This will pass. If not, I'll be on your ***! You know that!