Eating Disorders..anyone..?

[ztachick]

HI, I haven't been around the boards much for a couple of months, but plan to visit more..
I was just wondering if anyone here has now or in the past ever been diagnosed (either self or by a doc) as having an ed..? thanks

[Desertthorn]

Well I am an emotional eater, and will eat until my tummy hurts whe I am stressed, mad, sad, happy, depressed and lately, unfortunately I have been all of the above. Its been difficult to focus on a diet when your brain is on an emotional rollercoaster, if you know what I mean.
We have missed you. Glad your back.

[cranberry]

I had a spell of bulemia during my later high school years

[lola101]

I'm actually trying to recover from bulimia-anorexia... it's hard to classify it b/c I go through stages. Atkins has helped me stick to a meal plan and be more healthy and not feel the need to fall back into my eating disordered ways..it's hard tho!

Cranberry.. you give me hope of recovery!

[ztachick]

DESERTHORN--emotional rollercoasters are hard to overcome sometimes..
CRANBERRY--how long did the spell last, were you self or clinically diagnosed....
LOLA--are u self diagnosed or clinically diagnosed.. you can recover... it just takes time and want and patience
IF ANY ONE WANTS TO PM ME FEEL FREE TO....

[lola101]

I'm too afraid to go to the doctor about it (altho last time my dentist gave me weird looks and was questioning me a lot). I wouldn't want my family/friends or anyone to find out about it. It's only been for the last 2 years.. so I hope things get better, altho I read somewhere that it always stays with you and right now it seems like that is my reality. The bulimia has gotten a lot better since last year.. but I go through phases that last a few months and then it's back to restricting. I've never spoken to anyone about this.. so it feels kind of weird typing it out.
I would never ever wish an eating disorder on anyone.. I've been on message boards and there are girls even younger than me (I'm 19) that are struggling with this everyday.. it's truly horrible b/c it's always in the back of your mind.
thanks for your support tho!

PS. Have you had (or do you have) an eating disorder? you don't have to answer if you don't feel comfortable

[ztachick]

Hi lola, yea actually i always had a strange occupation with food even when i was thin(since like 7th grade).. but then i got into a binge cycle..well i got to be about 262 and a tight size 24 last Aug, so i decided that on Sept 1st of o4 that i was going to do something about it, so i started atkins and was very strict about it, i was lsoing weight pretty steadily and then i'm not sure what happened.. about 4 months ago or so i got real stresed with my job i changed bf's(my choice) and i just felt very stressed so i started binging and taking lax's and diuetics(i had done this in HS too) well it got to where the past 3-4 months ive gained and lost the same 13 or so lbs..i had never been able to purge before but i finally found a way that worked for me so ive done that a few times but never get it all up so i dont really do that often..but since about March i cant seem to get off that binge restrict cycle it got so bad that i couldnt concentrate at work so i went online and found a counseler that specialized in ed's and so i went a couple of times to her she is really nice but i havent been to see her for a couple of weeks cuz of my work schedule, but i have another appt on thurs..she did diagnose me with bulimia but i thought it was gonna be ed nos(not otherwise specified) cuz at that point i hadnt thrown up yet but the laxs and diuretics are enough to diagnose you...anyways sorry my story got so long.. but yea so lateley uve been binging everything with carbs and i dont really bother to purge since i never can get it all up so ive again lost and gained the ave of 13 lbs but im gonna try to go back to low carb and restricting a lil too cuz i really do know that works...
pm me if you want my email or wanna chat
but.. a warning to you, if your dentist is already noticing that your teeth are getting bad cuz of the acid then IMHO you really should go to a speciized ed counselier they wont judge you thats what they do for a living and many of them have had ed's themsleves...

[Brook]

I still go through phases with bullemia. This WOE has helped me all but conquer it for the last 3+ years. I'm healthier now -both mentally and physically than I've ever been.

For me, personally - it's a control issue. (Giant Surprise) When life seems way out of control, this is one area I feel like I can put on lock-down and feel like the master of my universe. Unfortunately - that's what it feels like while I'm in there praying to the porceline god for redemption - and once I'm done, the reality of how out of control I am sets in.

It's a vicious cycle - and one I have sought help for. I know what the deal is. I know how to be in control. But it *is* something I will likely deal with for the rest of my life - and for me, knowing that is more than half the battle. It doesn't make me feel hopeless or like I'll never get over it all. It's yet another challenge I'm faced with, and I deal with head on.

We all know these are unhealthy tendencies. We know that others see it and that we're not fooling anyone -especially our health care providers. The only thing I'd like to pass on is that the resources are out there for each and every one of us and they're there to be used when we need them. Embarrassment about this subject isn't necessary, although God knows I understand the thought processes behind it. I really do. Do not let shame or guilt stop you from doing what you need to do to make sure you're here tomorrow to make a difference for someone else - and every day you let this take you over is another day you lose.

It's not something most of us like to talk about a whole lot. It's a pretty icky subject to deal with overall. But I'm here. You're here. I think that says something pretty fantastic about the inner strength and power each of us has already.

Love & Light.
~Brook

[erica16]

I was anorexic....it got so bad that my parents had to place me a hospital for almost a month...it was the worst experience ever. In the hospital they didn't teach me how to eat...they just force fed us to get our weight up...just made my problems worse...feel free to mesage me about this. take care

[bugout429]

I've tried in the past to make myself throw up, but lack the gag reflex for it. I envy, but lack, the willpower that it takes to be anorexic. I am a former diet pill junkie - former only because ephedra is hard to come by nowadays. I abuse laxatives, and even have been known to abuse cocaine as a means to dull my frighteningly hearty appetite. Not only do I have this appetite, but I'm also a total emotional eater. Sometimes I think I'll never be thin naturally. Even on the ANA I'm still taking "power cleansers" and laxatives to empty myself out.

Nice to meet you all.