Hi, my name is Kristen and Im a FOOD addict...

[lifetastesbetter]

Well, the title of my post says it all, it is kind of a joke but definately is true. The last year I have completely went crazy overboard with my eating habits. I totally lost control and therefore gave up on myself. I had it in my head that I was "Destined to be fat". I would tell myself that everyday I was fat, out of control junk food munching and lazy. How horrible!!
Some nights I was eating a few chocolate bars, one after another, half a big bag of doritos, 1.5 L size slurpees, pop, licorice, candy, you name it I ate it!

I had an abortion last March (No I am not ashamed to say this as I feel its apart of helping me come to terms with my self destructive behavior and it was BEST FOR ME) Anyway, afterwards the guy I was dating and I inevitably fell apart and I was sucked into this huge depression. I didn't want to spend time with my kids, I was sleeping all the time, and eating all night long. I'd start at about 10 PM and go til sometimes 4 AM. How gross....

Anyway, I can't begin to tell you how much BETTER I am feeling about myself these days. For 3 weeks now I have completely cut out all pop, junk food, fast food, chocolate, cake, cookies, anything. 5 days now I am on a CLEAN induction and I plan on staying on extended induction for a while. I am no longer experiencing the vicious cycle of binge eating, feeling great about it then a low deep crash .... I DO NOT MISS THIS!! Remembering how I felt after eating all that for MONTHS is really helping me stay on track.

Anyway, I just needed to vent about this and let people know that you are able to change no matter how deep of a low you feel you're at. My skin is clearer, my stomach is already smaller, my back rolls are going away and no longer meet up with my 'love handles'... my face is slimming down and Im just all around feeling more stable and happy. I'm ready to better myself not self destruct. I am 25 and I have wasted enough time feeling sorry for myself for being a fatty.

Thats enough for now.... just know if anyone out here reading this has felt this way and wants to talk, I am here.... I'm online alot so get at me!!

[scaleskl]

Well congratulations on your weight loss so far. Thanks for sharing a little of yourself with us. You seem focused and determined.

I also have a goal of getting a tattoo at about 145lbs. Do you have any tattoos now?

[cgdat136]

kris...

i used to do similar stuff....i would have a somewhat normal breakfast and lunch but then when i came home it was dinner, and then virtually eating almost non stop until i went to bed. my main killer was making nachos....but i would have soda too.....coke or pepsi, and even other snacks we'd keep in the cupboard. whether it was some kind of cookie, or rice krispy treats.....anything sugary and caloric. oh i have had my issues along the way myself.

i have been following the WOL for just about three weeks too....and my cravings have disappeared as well. its amazing. and now i am on this pushup kick as well. currently i am averaging 63/day.......but you aint seen nothin' yet i love this bulletin board...everyone here is great, the challenges are good and i am buying into these ideas and losing weight along the way. kristen, we are all in this together!!!

chris

[SandyL2002]

Welcome Kristen... You sound like you are on track already Great Job!

[OzLover]

Welcome Kristen!

Isn't it wonderful to be out of that carb incduced fog! You've come to the right place for encouragement, knowledge & support. Good luck on your journey to health.

Glenda

[hopejoy]

Welcome Kristen! Sorry you've had such a rough time this past year, but it's great you are taking charge of your life and found this board and started Atkins! We've all been there using food for all the wrong reasons... so you're in good company! I hope you keep posting and let us know your progress! You're doing great so far! Congratulations!
liz

[lifetastesbetter]

Hey guys,

Thank you all for your replies. I do feel much better about myself in gaining control over food (at least more so than I was) I did cheat on the weekend, had a few drinks one night and greasy pizza the next day! BAD BAD me I am right back on track today though and my mini goal is to make 7 days cheat free.

I just keep thinking about how much better I feel now compared to the nights of hanging around eating til I felt ill. Grosses me out thinking about it!!

scaleskl--- thats cool that you have a goal set for getting a tattoo! Do you have anything in mind, or know where you are going to get it? I have 3 already (one may be gone some day if I choose to get a tummy tuck! Pre-kid tattoo!), then I have a baby tiger on the back of my right shoulder and a floral design on my lower back. I would love to get a big back piece done, something that flows with my curves...of what exactly I don't know. Maybe a big collage of alot of stuff that has meaning to me all blended together. Whatever it is I want it bright, vivid and feminine.

[Mothercooter]

I too am a food addict. I would eat from the time I woke to the time I went to sleep. If I would go 1 hour without eating I was looking around for something to eat. It was a compulsion. I just had to be eating something. I was soooo addicted to carbs and sugar.

I was having so many health problems that I never connected with high carb diet before until a dr pointed it out to me and suggested south beach. I went atkins instead though as south beach just did address my cravings or stop them like atkins did.

Last time I did atkins I was on it 4 montsh and lost 50 lbs. I got pregnant and tried to stay on mantainence but fell off the wagon because of moving too soon to that phase and the cravings came back and mostly thought it was my fault, using pregnancy as an excuse to eat anything and everything.

I am determined this time to conquer my eating disorders (yes more than one)
and not let food control my life again. Food will always be an issue with me but it doesnt have to rule me.

[Success101]

Well my name says it all. I too am a Food Addict. I have resolved to start new and do a clean Induction. It's been a struggle but I'm sticking to it because like you, I made the decision not to be fat anymore. I congratulate you on your success so far and wish you the best. We're all in the same boat. This is the best place for support anyone could ever wish for. Everyone here is kind and wise and always willing to help at a moment's notice. Always my sincere thanks everyone! I'm here often in these forums if you need me.

[Brandee]

Hey Kristen... I was reading your journal and it sounded all too familiar, as I'm sure you hear alot. Sounds like you had a pretty destructive relationship with food. Only thing is, FOOD was cheating on you... with me! *haha* Thank you for your posts... they have really inspired me.