Heart hurts, can't eat

[Valinerya]

I don't quite know what to do. It's been a really emotional day.

Someone I have been very close to for a year had changed his behavior the past three weeks or so. He was once jovial and open and chatty, and he became - almost overnight - quiet and distant and solemn. Today he confessed to me that 3 weeks ago, he had been able to reconnect with someone who was out of his life for years, and things are progressing very quickly between them.

We weren't boyfriend/girlfriend or anything like that, but we did have a fling late last year, and our feelings for one another were never quite over even though we switched to friendship.

There's more to the story, but that's the main parts.

So today I feel like I've been dumped. I want him to be happy, and if he gets a second chance to be happy with someone he's always loved, I really am happy for him.

I'm just really sad for me. I miss the openness we shared. He says he can be really open with her, and he needs to resolve some feelings around me. He says we're friends, and he hopes that our friendship is sound and true. I don't want him out of my life, but wow does this hurt.

ANYways, eating has been a no-go today. I've tried, and my throat closes up, cause I'm on the verge of tears all day.

I just needed to vent. Thanks for listening.

[JulieB]

I hope you feel better tomorrow. Hugs.

[mizski]

Sorry to hear about your friend. Feel free to vent here anytime...sometimes just typing it out helps...a bit anyways.