Feeling Down...

[CarrieSmattick]

I don't know why but I'm feeling really down today. It might be because I haven't had much of a loss this week although I have lost inches and that cheered me up.

I have a hate/hate relationship with food anyway but it has been a long time since I felt this bad over food. I am finding that I have to force myself to eat. If I do eat I want to throw up. I could quite easily just not eat at all but I've been there and done that and I desperately don't want to go down that road again.

I think I'm just feeling a bit sorry for myself today - take no notice, just ignore me and I'll snap out of it.

Sorry if I'm depressing anyone else.

[Kate113]

I know where you're coming from. I've been on the same path lately. I guess we all have our good days and our bad days. Hang in there. It'll get better.

[CarrieSmattick]

I'm sure it will - Thank you Kate

[sunflowergrl]

Oh, I wish I could cheer you up! I do hope you get feeling better, and can eat a little bit. Anything I can do, please PM me and let me know. You are in my thoughts, and please keep us posted on how you are doing.

[CarrieSmattick]

Do you know what sunflowergrl? You are a truly beautiful, selfless person and I love you for it.

[Jasmain]

Oh Carrie, if I had a dime for every time I tried to shove people away when I felt bad, I'd be a millionnaire by now, seriously! Blue days come around for many of us, days when we just aren't sure that anything we can do will help. Well, it will. Trust me, if you don't trust yourself. It's a funny thing about being blue, I always find myself trying to go off to some quiet, dark corner to not "bother" anyone with my troubles. Don't listen to that voice in your head, it's a bad bad voice and when you're feeling down, you can bet that doing the exact opposite of what it tells you will help lighten the load instead of hurting anyone! These little brains of ours can be so damn sneaky. You really are a beautiful lady, you know. I look at your picture and just smile, you look wonderful! There is NO rush to what you're doing now, no magic anything that is going to make you thin overnight. Every step you take is one less hurdle to bloody yourself on as you jump over it! Every pound is one pound less you have to lose, and YAY for that! It's funny sometimes, how we worry so much over every pound we lose, but how fast we put it on, sometimes before we even realized it! Let the chips fall where they may hun, let go of the anxiety, the worry, the constant remorse for past things that can't be changed. Look to the future, one small step at a time. Enjoy the journey, embrace the changes that are happening, no matter how small. Watching for positive changes should be full of joy, not agony like the negative ones that you're slowly leaving behind! Love yourself and life!

[Desertthorn]

Sending you a little hug.

[mcotton]

I hope you are feeling better. Please know that you are cared about deeply by us here on the board. You do have to eat for your health. It is real easy to get stuck in a depressive rut and not pull yourself out of it. Look at yourself and see how beautiful you are. I am sending you hugs too.

[Below 30]

oh carrie......bigs hugs honey!.........i have those days too.......my husband calls it the winter blues tomorrow is another day and a new outlook!

[JandLsMom]

Carrie,
i am sorry you are feeling down! Get some rest and take good care of yourself, it will pass. HUGGS!