A complete weak moment...anyone else ever do this?

[Quitstretchin']

O.K. I have to confess....I have reached some low points in my life. Even the first time I attempted Atkins and binged uncontrollably after the first week would definately fall in this category, however, there is nothing like my incident yesterday.

I had a long day at work and an evening meeting I regularly commit to. I had gone hours without eating (I know....bad, bad, bad...). I stopped at El Pollo Loco to get dinner on my way home (broiled chicken and double sides of steamed veggies...going good so far!). I also ordered a quesadilla to scrape out the good gooey hot cheese(sticky situation, but still an appropriate choice).
Here's the problem. I sat in the car to eat the cheese (the whole purpose was for it to be good and hot!!! ). As I began driving home, the sweet smell of the tortilla was overwhelming and too much to handle.
I bit into the quartered seqment of a piece of the quesadilla. then I stuffed the WHOLE triangle segment in my mouth.......I can not tell a lie.......the flavor was sooooooooooooooo good!!!!

THEN...I spit it out and scrubbed my tongue with a napkin. I picked up another piece and did the same thing. I continued with this behavior until all 4 segments were gone. Then I drove happily home (and slightly ashamed and guilty I might add).

Please tell me someone else has hit a low like this. I assume I looked like an addict edulging in her latest fix....
I am glad I had the "right mind" and willpower (such relative terms!)to spit it out. I have made good progress so far and I would just die if after I cooled off and came back to my senses, I was faced with the fact that I threw all my hard work down the drain for a few flat pieces of bread!

[not2late]

You need to sit down, with a pencil and paper and do some soul searching...

Write down your goals and expectations. How you mean to accomplish these goals and what you expect of yourself.

Then stop and think about what happened today as opposed to the days you don't fall off. Think of any stressful conditions: did you eat your meals today---where you satisfied with the meals you ate? Was work particularly stressful, eg, boss being unbearable, deadlines approaching, etc.?

Once you've figured out those pressure points, start thinking of ways to avoid or counter act them: unsatisfied with meals---bring snacks or find more tasty recipes, stressed out at the office--stop by a park on the way home and walk around to burn off that stress and relax your mind or go straight home and do an exercise tape, etc.

dreamof145 drew up a contract with herself and read it whenever she was feeling tempted.

So figure out what happened today and how you can prevent it in the future, then you improve your chance of losing on Atkins.

[2big4mysize]

WOW. Glad you survived that!

I've never done that one. some folk used to sniff stuff they couldn't eat but not that. Some folk have posted about caving and bitten a forbidden food and while chewing come to there senses and spit it out and rinsed the mouth but not on purpose putting anoither bite in just to spit it out. you are displaying Eating disorder behavior and it is a very short step from spiting it out to swallowing it and vomiting it back up.

[Quitstretchin']

Whoa 2Big....I never thought about swollowing it and throwing it up. Back in high school, during rush for my sorority (yeah, my highschool had fraternities and sororities), one of the things we had to do was to swollow Epicept. I have never vomitted so viciously in my life. It was the scariest thing ever. The thought of throwing up now puts me into a panic mode.

Last nights incident- I didn't do on purpose...I started with one and impulsively kept going...I initially really just wanted the cheese. This has come on the tail end of increasingly severe cravings that I have been desperately trying to get a hold of. I had not cheated before last night, despite the severe cravings for carbs. I even took suggestions and changed my diet (no sugar substitutes, diet soda, certain salad dressings, etc...) to help with the cravings but it obviously hasn't helped.

It was really a weak moment. No intent to deceive the whooshie fairy in any way! Your suggestions are very helpful though..I had already thought about doing some of them myself.

[Mothercooter]

Hi, I just wanted to say that it is kinda scary sounding, only cause i can relate. As a teen I dealt with anorexia and bulemia and i did that a few times. purposely chewing the spitting out when the cravings got too much. When i became pregnant i just replaced one eating disorder for another...overeating. Now I am here though and refuse to let food control my life! I think they key is, to head off those cravings so you wont end up stuck in a situation where you can loose control.

Eat every fe hours even if just a little cheese or pepperoni or something. I know thats easier said that done sometimes with the lives we lead but it beats having it all fall apart.

Im not saying you have an eating disorder at all though. You just lost control for a min. Most of us have very little will power, thats why we are here so best not to rely on that but to not need it in the first place is key!

I have to stop sometimes when im sniffing some sweets for too long and ask myself...

What are you doing???????

I imagine someone snapping my pic at that moment. Sure brings me back to my senses pretty quick, haha!

[boonie stomper]

Congratulations on not letting the pieces make it to your hips. The aroma got to me like that once, from hushpuppies my DS refused right after I'd bought them, steaming hot, as a surprise I thought he would like, and though I felt instant guilt after bite one, I swallowed, and followed it with all of them.

I don't care how good they smell now, it just doesn't come close to being worth the crummy feelings for days, plus the diet setback I had for a week, to have tasted them for a few seconds.

[Quitstretchin']

Thank you for the support...While I was eating it, I could taste everybit of it.....today...I hardly remember much of the taste. As days go on, I will forget its taste completely and would really be regretful had I continued down that path.
Weak moment it was!!!! I did think for a minute...."what if someone saw me stuffing this stuff down my throat...I have to look rediculous!!"

I assume we all have had a weak point in this journey at some point. (Glad to hear you caught yours fast enough bonnie stomper). My intentions are to get back on track and refocus- after last night, I got back on track immediately. Now I just have to figure out what caused this meltdown before it happens again!

[not2late]

Originally Posted by Quitstretchin'

Now I just have to figure out what caused this meltdown before it happens again!

Good for you!

Knowing and recognizing your triggers will help you avoid pitfalls in the future.

[kacey1]

Originally Posted by Quitstretchin'

I had gone hours without eating (I know....bad, bad, bad...).

I've been doing some weight training over the past 6 weeks and I listen to a bodybuilder while I'm doing it. He said something that really stuck with me:

Bodybuilders spend X amount of time per day working on their bodies thru physical exercise and X*2 amount of time per day buying/prepping/preparing/eating the food they put in their bodies. Because of this attention to detail, a bodybuilder NEVER lets themselves get hungry. They are constantly in a state of nutriciously feeding themselves (every 3 or 4 hours) and making sure they are NEVER hungry and NEVER full. Just satisfied.

Well, I've really used that thought. Hey - if I'm NEVER hungry (I don't mean that I'm constantly stuffed but that I'm generally always satisfied) then when temptation comes along I might have the old demons and psyco-split personality talking inside my head but I WON'T also have my stomach screaming at me as well. It has helped me alot. ALOT! I've teenagers, a baby, colleagues who'd love to 'feed' me (for some weird reason), etc. and I would LOVE to sample their food sometimes. Being satisfied helped me with those cravings. (Mind you - it doesn't shut up the voice in my head but it does help me talk LOUDER!)

I think its great that you didn't eat the stuff. But I think having some food with you, all the time, could help (somewhat or a lot) towards not having the situation be so out of control the next time.

Anyway - just a thought!

Kacey

[jellybee201]

I just wanted to let you know that your not alone (Quitstretchin) yesterday for some reason me and my bf had some issues... I wanted to take a drink. I'm not a drinker but boy did it sound good!! It's not allowed on the induction. So I poured some brandy into a small glass and stared at it. In the end it just wasn't worth it. ( not the same I know but I had a fall almost)

I've had episodes like you with food too. So many times. The urge to eat more. Smells good... can't have it... has to be good... you know after eating it you just realise well to me... I realised it didn't really taste as amazing.

I'm sorry you had a bad day. Everyone goes through that. Some worse then others. But atleast you know here you can come with out judgement. Ppl listen and give advice. It's nice not to be alone in that way.

You seemed to pull out of it really good. For that you should be proud!