advice please

[Becoming Mandy]

Hello everyone,

it's been a while since i last posted on here. I haven't got very far with my weight lost infact iv'e put weight on. Things are really bad at the moment i'm feeling really low and stuck i can't find a way out of this binge cycle i'm on. i've done atkins before so i know it works i lost 5 stone but put it back on when i hit a bad point with my eating disorder. I really want to do this and reach my target i want to apply for a new job soon but i've failed so many time i can't find the energy to do it all again but i need to fell more confidant in myself or i'll never get the job. why do i continue to starve myself when i know it will end in a binge it's so much more easier to do atkins but i hate eating i feel that i'm doing something wrong by eating.

I hope someone can help me.

Mandy

[losetocruise]

Hi Mandy,
Gosh I sure wish I knew how to help you. I read back over your previous posts and you sound like you have been desperately wanting to do this for a long time. It has to be more then a want to though. Only YOU can really make a change for yourself.

Mandy, changing your lifestyle and stopping a binge routine is not an easy thing to do. No one can or should tell you it is. But once you break these cycles it WILL gradually become easier. And the rewards are so there for you.

One thing I do when I need motivation is look at the pictures of some of the moderators and long time adkins folks. Mitzi and Elizellen are great ones to look up. And they are not the only ones. When you see what changes they have made, you have to realize that those changes can be for you too.

From all of your posts it sounds as if you are having problems with self esteem. Diet and exercise will help you tremendously there, but you have to get there first.

I am wishing the very best for you. if you commit to this, be assured that this is themost positive board I have ever belonged to. The members really care about helping each other and will pull for you 100%.

[Tomorrow_I'll_Be_Perfect]

Oh Mandy, we're riding the same train! I go through the same binge, starve, why the **** don't I go back on Atkins phases. Pretty much in that order. I actually just did an Atkins, binge, starve, binge, Atkins all in less than three weeks. I've been having a rough time lately too!

It's hard for people to understand unless they go through it. I realized (again) on Saturday that I was the only person who could do anything for me and that I would have to dig deep and find that single minded determination I had the first time I did Atkins (with great success I might add). I developed some great habits that first time that I never lost, even after I fell away from this WOL.

I find that thinking back to a time when my habits were really bad, and then looking at the ones that have changed for the better works for me. The "at least I don't do that anymore" mentality can really help. We don't always know we're making progress, especially when it's happening so slowly, but at some point we can look back and see how far we've actually come.

When things seem at the lowest, they can only get better. One meal at a time, one day at a time. Just do you best, no one can ask more than that from you....not even you!

You'll do it, I know you will.