Remember Me? Mom/Dad = dead. Me = HELP

[QtpieMtV]

Hi guys..

I came on months ago to tell my sad story about my mother, father, grandmother dying on CHRISTMAS day from a drunk driver down in Florida. Anyway...When my parents were alive they were firm believers of atkins and lost tons of weight together and then I joined them after gaining some college pounds and it has been out way of life for years now...(every so often enjoying ourselves at functions cheating a bit but never gaining bc always going straight back to our way of life). Anyway, my mother lost 60 pounds on Atkins and it was great doing Atkins with her because we were each other's biggest fans and we supported each other and she made SUCH good meals and it was fabulous.

Well, I promised I would stay on Atkins after they all died so that I didn't become one of those depressed heavy set people who inched their way up to 250 pounds. I've seen it happen and I can totally understand why because after about 3-4 months on atkins, my stages of mourning changed and now all I want to do is sit on the couch and eat. No working out, no dancing (my old passion) ...no eating healthy. Just JUNK. Why?! I'll take naps, I'll do nothing! I try to motivate myself to get out of it by looking at old sexy pictures of myself orrr looking at my favorite sexy curvy celebrities or dancers who get me pysched for going on atkins and feeling good! I'm tired of feeling so TIRED from all the junk and doing nothing but sitting on the couch!

I'm only 10 pounds higher but a few more weeks of this and I'll be at 60lbs over!! See, I don't mind doing great on atkins to keep my body in shape and then going on vacation and enjoying myself bc I am young. I am an active person. I've never gone more than 1 pants size up and I always catch myself bc I find motivation and right now I'm having trouble finding it. I have disney coming up in two months, I just got back from Vegas and had a blast, I'm going back to school to be an elementary school teacher and good things are happening but I still have the death of my parents and grandma over my head every second of the day and my new attitude is anger and lazyness and I hate it.

I was thinking maybe I get it out of my system this week and try to prepare for atkins next Monday - HARD CORE INDUCTION...stock up my kitchen, get rid of bad food (unless my boyfriend eats it since he lives with me) ummmm you know really get myself in the mind set, once I'm there I don't fall off and I see results in my skin and my energy levels and overall happiness so any words of encouragment...? Maybe I need an atkins buddy on here.???

Thanks guys...

[flpooh19701]

Welcome to the boards! Sorry to hear of your tragedy. Way to go only gaining ten lbs! You mentioned starting next monday because you wanted to get the old ways out of your system. When you say that do you mean make small baby steps toward induction or do you mean eat at will anything and everything and then start induction? I would advise baby steps toward full induction or just start induction tomorrow and don't put it off! Think of where you could be in a week. Good luck!

[QtpieMtV]

No baby steps. I'm pretty much a PRO on Induction. And I found after years of doing it - when I fall off, I can't start any day of the week except Monday bc it's the beginning of a new FRESH week. It's sounds stupid but it's true - it's the only way I can get my mind set to be in this 100% if it begins on a Monday.

I'm just an emotional eater and obviously I'm emotional about my parents and any time I get sad or angry I get pissed at my parents for dying on me and eat eat eat. Ugh.... I guess what I need is finding something new and fresh that can re-motivate me like the old days (no matter WHAT is in the way).

Oh well..
I guess it'll be when I'm so UPSET with myself for having too much cellulite ...then maybe I'll finally snap out of it. I actually haven't reached that point yet and I hope I do by the end of the week so I can do atkins full force and not look back.

AFter mom and dad passed..my friend got diagnosed with cancer and every MONTH someone close has died...that's 6 people so far AFTER my mom/dad/grandma....I'm so immune to death right now and that alone scares me.


K i'm done.
I need a damn atkins buddy to write to who is in their early 20's (i'm going to be 24) and who usually likes to work out!! When I'm on atkins I usually work out 3-5 times a week but right now I'm stuck !!

Any takers?

[brandywine1241]

Is there a grief support group in your area? It sounds to me like you are still dealing with your loss and maybe talking to people who have gone through something similar will help. I am in awe at the strength you have shown so far, but even the strongest people need a shoulder to cry on sometimes.

[Tuliedave]

I can't think of a more fitting memorial to your loved ones than honoring them by living their Atkins lifestyle for the rest of your life. Today is always the best day to start. God Bless and stay the course!