accountability and honesty

[momonmission99*]

I cheated over the weekend. I didn't binge or have a cheat day. I did however have food that is not ok on the owl rung I'm on. I knew what I Was doing. I made a conscious decision to do it. Nobody forced me and I am not weak. I have no excuses.

The funny thing is, it was good...food usually is good lol, but it didn't satisfy me. I actually felt sick to my stomach afterward. It was a tiny amount compared to what I used to eat when I ate this type of food. It was an actual serving. Just one serving made my stomach hurt.

I didn't have problems controlling myself and easily went right back to my good eating habits of atkins. I have no desire to do it again. I'm not really sure why I did it, but it kind of reaffirmed that I don't need that stuff and it makes me feel full and sluggish. Even a small amount made me feel gross.

I didn't have any weight gain with it, but that's because I didn't pig out.
I'm owning my mistake and moving on. In a way it was a lesson learned. It made me realize that I have a little more control than I thought I did and it really isn't worth it. Normally if I decided to go off my "plan" I would end up binging and never return. This was more like a bump in the road. Not sure why I chose to take that bumb...but thankfully it wasn't a bad bump.

So all of you that want to cheat. I can't make you not do it, but I can tell you that it really honestly wasn't worth it. Not because I had some negative effects from it, but because the food really isn't as good as you remember it.

[chinadoll]

we have all been there. Now, the key is to remember this moment. There may come a time when you are really tempted and remembering this experience may be the armor you need. Glad you are using it as a learning experience rather than beating yourself up.