What an inspiring board!

[snowlily]

I'm really glad I saw Lauren talk about this thread in Jimmiejo's journal. I honestly never knew it existed. Hopefully I can find some support here as well. I see a number of you are trying to kick the smoking/sugar addictions. Me? A bigger story. I posted not long ago about breaking a bond in my life and I guess I will just have to lay it all out on the table if I am to receive any help from anybody. Anyone who knows me knows I have terrible ankles. Erosion has started and eventually will need joint replacement, however, at this point in time I am too young. I see a pain specialist monthly. Which is where my addicition begins. Something I have desperately needed for help has turned into something I cannot go without. I am prescribed 6 Hyrdocodones (10mg) a day. I also get injections. However 6 turned to 8 that turned to 10. I was miserable. I could not get out of bed without my pills. I blame this on my failure at my weightloss as well. I was out of control with everything.

Fortunately, I am now down to 3 sometimes 4 a day. What a tremendous difference it has been. My life isnt centered on when my next dose is. At least not until my headaches start and I realize that I havent had any in hours. 3 may seem incrediably much for most, but for me, its such an amazing accomplishment. I feel more in control. Even though I am not completely off of them i am in control now. My plan is to one day not need them at all. But the hard part is that sometimes I really do need them for the pain. I just have to stay in control, which I am proud to say, I have been for 3 weeks now. Needing them is a tremendous downfall in my life.

My conclusion: ADDICTIONS SUCK!

Well, just thought I should share my story and where I am now. Especially since others were honest enough to share theirs. No, I have not overcome mine, but I'm well on my way! :yes

[jimmie 48]

snow i love you, you know that.
you have addressed the problem and you realize there is one. that takes some effort just in itself.

tell me something, are the pills addicting just in themselves or is the addiction from how it makes your ankles feel? don't know if that is phrased right but i hope you understand what i mean.

and i know you have chatted in your journal about how hard it is to do your exercise, when it does happen. that has to be wearing on you because as you stated, the weight is not helping anything.

i hope that some others that have had things happen along this line will come in here to chat it up.

btw, this is a forum that i plan on posting in all my welcomes to our new folks.

[snowlily]

Hey JimmieJo! Thanks for droppin in here! Its the pills themselves. I got to the point that i could not get out of bed and function in the morning unless i took two hydrocodone. and it had nothing to do with my ankle pain. I had awful headaches and couldnt think straight. my body ached like i had the flu. then, after about 30 mins of taking them, i was "normal". Its a pretty sad state to be in. My mornings now are good. I can get up and function without them. However its not long till the detoxing starts and i take just 1 and im ok. ive only taken 3 today and i used to have had at least 8 by now. So Im doing better. Its a day by day battle! Thanks for posting! Hopefully there will be someone else with a similar struggle with good advice!

[jimmie 48]

i hope that is the case snow. i actually have 2 theories on this forum:
1. people don't actually know it's here! it's not what stand out when your scrolling i guess.
and
2. people are a bit afraid to post something they are addicted to. makes us look vulnerable maybe? but hey, we were all addicted to food or we wouldn't be here right?

i am glad you had the courage to post! you're a christian girl and some (not necessarily on this board) have this idea that chritian people think they are above all the junk that happens and this proves otherwise. how you handle it is a whole nuther story! i can just imagine the prayers you have sent heavenward asking for help.

it sounds like you have a very good handle on this. your in my prayers tonight girl!

[Laurenfra]

Snow I knew from your journals you had some sort of battle. I am so happy you are working on it and felt comfortable to post here.
I have done a lot of reashearch on food addictions and it is said it is the hardest addiction to break because you have to eat, you just can't quit. I would think your addiction is the same. You know Jimmie and I will pray you thru this. :hug

[jimmie 48]

hey snowbud, just wondering how you did today. how many pills did it take this morning?

i scrolled kinda fast here to see if i asked this aleady and i don't see it. is there something else the doctor can prescribe for you that wouldn't be so addictive to your system?
have you told the doctor about how these meds are making you feel?

[snowlily]

JimmieJo--I've tried everything out there just about. The injections really do help, but are very expensive. My goal is to depend on the injections for relief more than the medications. Its a darned if you do and darned if you dont cycle. :sadblinky

Today I did good. Only took 4 (for the whole day). I havent been above 4 in about 2 weeks. So, I'm very proud so far. The doctor prescribed my dad some pain patches for his leg, I may look into those. I'll see how well they help him first. Thanks for checking up on me! :hug

[Laurenfra]

Snow
I know pain relief is the most important thing, but I hope you c an find another way. You are a real awsome lady dealing with all this

[jimmie 48]

this is what i know about snowgirl, she prays and depends on God to help her through this. He man not take that pain away from her but He will help her deal with it.

glad you only had to take 4 of those pills today. i never heard of a patch for pain! i could insert a couple jokes here but won't. lol

[snowlily]

Thanks guys! I feel good about it all. And knowing you guys are here for support is even more great! You both get a great big :hug

Come on JimmieJo! I love Jokes.........LOL!