It really bothers me I could not take it last night

[hey_nelson]

Sheesh, I thought I had this craving under control but last night, New Year's eve I found myself craving the tequila and JD I had been smelling all night then to the point where I would have drank a stinking beer. So what did I do? I left the party about 2am. I've been asking myself why and I think I would have proably not stopped with 1, but continued to my limit which would have been senselessness. I was watching people throw back tequila and wanted to feel the burn, I wanted to nurse the bottle of JD instead of those who were pouring it in their coffee.

I need to get myself to a face to face meeting this week. There are so many here in LA and I've stopped attending regularly because I thought I had my addiciton under control. Obvoiusly I don't!!
My addiction to food is the same but I don't jet nervous our pout when I take a particulary food out of my diet. Why can't I be the same about alcohol? I don't know.

I come here for the support with my food addiction, so I need to get the support I need for my other addiction.

Thanks for being here people and for your love and support
patty

[jimmie 48]

[[[[patty]]]]

you are one of the strongest people on this board, patty. if meetings is the way to go. then do that. been there, done that as someone on the flip side of the coin.

[julirama723]

Patty, it took a lot of strength to say "NO" last night, and you did it! You are strong, though you may have felt weakened.

A craving is just that, a craving. Luckily, you didn't let it become an addiction again.

Yes, go to a meeting, talk with others, vent, discuss fears and hopes.

True, we're an atkins board, but I can guarantee there are a BUNCH of us here that will try to help you and support you the best we can!

[HeidiE]

oh honey I am sorry ...just know we all have our demons

and support is support ....

my brother finds 24 hour meetings in almost every town he visits ..if you need one find one ....


in the mean time ..sending you energy and love to keep it real and keep you strong ....
2007 is here and I have a feeling this will be a good year
OOOXXX

[Qjakal]

Nicely done. I'd say leaving was the right move. We attended a "no booze" get together last night, and they seem to be getting more popular. Much of that is aimed at the drinking and driving problem but it also accesses other issues,obviously!

Now if I could only do something about the way the potato chips keep calling my name at these things...sigh.

Q

[dotsamantha]

Good on you for leaving the situation.

[sallyseachange]

How very strong of you to leave rather than succumb! New Year has to be one of the most difficult times too. You deserve MAJOR brownie points!!

Find a meeting and go to it... it's what they're for. I'd be inclined to go, if poss, even at times when I felt I didn't really need to, to hoard up on support and love.

Keep strong! You can do this.

[hey_nelson]

Thank you all so much. Jan 1st, went back to the open forum meeting in Downey at 7pm, sat myself down and listened. There were many new kids there just out of rehab and having to do their 90/90 court cards. Its good to listen to the kids and to remind myself where I don't want to be. **** take this thought to Atkins as well when we listen to a new Atkineer, where they have come from and where they want to be****
I sat down with Ruthie, an Old Timer with 12 + years under her belt and listened. I never followed up on finding a sponsor after my first sponsor died, then I got busy at work thinking being busy would keep me from it. LOL. I'm going to a noon meeting during the rest of the week.
Thank you Jimmie, Juli, Heidi, QJackal, Samantha, & Sally for your lovin and support.
patty