Need a serious kick in the behind to get back on track

[Luvmybabies]

I haven't been around in a couple of months. I ended up going in for my foot surgery on June 20th and the recovery was absolutely horrible. Way, way worse than I ever expected. Its been almost 2 months and I'm still in physical therapy, walking with a limp and after almost 6 weeks on crutches and laying on the couch with my foot up icing 30 min on, 30 min off while trying to care for my 2 children all day by myself (after hiring 2 babysitters and having to fire them)... I'm way off track, my stomach feels awful and I look terrible. We ate out far too much over the past couple of months, I was at the mercy of everyone else since I couldn't acutally stand up long enough to cook. I weighed myself over the weekend and I'm back up to 191.4lbs I worked hard and I was down to 160lbs before I went in for surgery in February, then I got back on track at the beginning of June and found out I was going in for surgery again To add to the mix, I got really sick in April and to make a long story short, I'm adding Lupus to the list of stuff I have to take meds for too.

Now I had to go back out and buy bigger pants, because I just plain couldn't breathe in my pants. I'm completely bummed, I feel awful. I don't know if my new medication (Plaquenil) will cause issues with losing weight. I'm looking back at pics from February vs now and just so, so discouraged.

Right now the plan is to start back up on Friday (I'll do groceries on Thursday and get ready). I need motivation, accountability, a cheerleader, anything. I hate that the past year has been so stinkin hard and I hate that I've hit so many bumps in my journey. I'm pretty sure its all (or most of it) in my journal. Last year I hurt my right foot, wore a boot on that, it healed... then we moved... then my daughter had medical issues.... then the winter was horrid with the kids, sick all of the time... I had surgery in February to replace an implant that I have... my 3yo aged out of EI and we have still yet to find him OT for his sensory needs... then I got sick in April, my DH was sick too... he went in for a procedure on the same day that our 3yo was having his adenoids out and tubes put in his ears... I drove everyone where they needed to be, while I was feeling terrible myself... then my 6yo (who has anxiety issues and OCD) went in to have her tubes put in her ears a week later.... then I fell and hurt my foot (because I was still feeling rotten and dizzy and fell on the stairs) and ended up having surgery 6 weeks after I hurt it. I could go on... and on.

Anyhow, I could really use use some motivation/accountability, etc. If you made it this far... wow, thanks!

[easttexasdaisy]

Hi, there!
You just be incredibly strong to have been through everything in such a short time.Some days you are the windshield and others the bug and it sounds you have had an ongoing stretch of bug days.
As far as the 3 year old goes, call your public school and look into a program called Preschool Program for Children with Disabilities, I taught that class for 4 years and we worked with OTs, PTs, speech therapists, etc. Might be a place to find help for your little one.
This whole forum is full of cheerleaders so you are in the right place, we will all be happy to help if you need it and just encourage you along your path.
I know with Atkins style eating I just have more energy to handle the day to day stuff. So keep that in mind that after the initial switch over to burning ketone for fuel that once it happens you will have a lot more energy. And the food is great plus you get to lose weight, definately a win-win situation for us all.
Anyway post often I know I want to hear how much better you feel and how you are melting back down to the 160 mark. Don't buy too many clothes, you just aren't going to need them.
Take care and like I said post often.

[Luvmybabies]

Bug days is a great way to look at the last few months, thanks!

I've been trying to deal with the school for my son, no replies to my emails and no return phone calls. He did have speech therapy with them for a short time after aging out, the speech isn't his major area of need though - the OT really is. Frustrating having to fight for your kids.

I'll definitely be posting often, I find this place is full of help which is wonderful. I think this time, since I'd like to make it my last, I just need the accountability, kwim?

[Outback Jess]

Hey girl, LETS GO! I know you can do this and YOU NEED TO COME TO ADBB alot and keep getting vision and focus and encouragement here. You have returned because it's a place to be real as well as a place you can really get motivated. You are not alone, I still come here frequently for that jolt that keeps me going.
I will cheer you on, just show up over here and make yourself a spot and get some momentum going. Just think, starting this Friday you will be in ketosis by Mon or Tues and off to the start of a great week!!

[Luvmybabies]

Thanks Jess! I will definitely be checking in here, often during the day. My laptop is open a good majority of the day. Todays project is making my grocery list for Thursday. Enjoying a nice Dunkins iced coffee (since I'll be giving it up, I'm going to do this right - caffeine is way too much of an addiction for me)