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[Jerrica]

Hi my name is Jerrica. I am 8 days into induction. I am here for a few reasons. I have been fat now for 7 years. It is emotionally draining. I avoid going in to stores if I see someone I have not seen in years. I cringe if they walk into the same place I am in. I feel trapped and embarrassed. I used to be very athletic until I had my 2nd and 3rd child. I am 32 years old and tired of letting my weight control my life!!! My children are very athletic as well. They all play softball, baseball, and basketball and are very good at it. They ask me all the time to practice with them. I tire very easily because I am at starting weight 254 lbs.

Recently I ran into a friend that I adore that I have not seen in years. My sister was at the table with me and he ran over to say hi to her. I kept my head turned the whole time hoping he would not see me. Then the words came out (how is your sister)? I wanted to climb under the table. It was very awkward and I said here I am 100lbs heavier. He said I am sorry I did not recognize you and gave me a big hug. I barely talked to him because I am ashamed of the way I look. When he left my sis said Jerrica he loves you as a friend no matter what size you are. She said every time I see him out all he talks about is how much he adores you. You are letting this control you completely. When I got into the car I cried because I acted like I did not care to see him. It was not that at all it was me being ashamed of my appearance. I am tired of that feeling and I am ready to change.

About 2 weeks ago my other sis asked be to be in her wedding. I immeadiately said I can't and she said what do you mean? I said I am too fat and I don't want to stand in front of everybody. She said too bad you have 9 months to change it if it bothers you. Your in my wedding so stand there ebarrased or stand there proud it is up to you. So here I am with incentive, lol. I am on my way to being proud and healthy.

[olga115]

Hi Jerrica, welcome. I’ new here too but I know a thing or two. You are in the right place! A lot of us were with you in the same nightmare and all of us have the same goal, ourselves. Give it a try and you’ll see how easy to follow is. Do it right though, do it for yourself, not for your sisters or your friends, do it because you are lucky, you have a life to live! Cheer up!

[Jerrica]

Thank you for your kind words. I am doing it for me because I am tired of how I have been living my life.

[Sheshy]

Hi Jerrica and welcome to ADBB!

Day #8 down, whoohoo! That's exciting!

I totally identify with you on running into old friends or having to attend functions...it's so hard! When I was my heavist, my sister asked me to be her matron of honor...oh I soooo didn't want to do it, but did for her! Seeing the pictures afterwards was depressing...but it did give me a big push to search for a way to get healthy...and see what I found? Atkins! and start the road back to health!

It sounds like you have that same mentality now, that's awesome!

Hope to see you around the board!

[Jerrica]

Thank you so much Shelly it is nice to see that others can relate.

[Adena]

Hi, Jerrica. Gosh, I could have written your post myself... except for being asked to squeeze myself into a bridesmaid's dress. I truly can relate. I, like you, am just at the start of my journey (day 9 of induction), and have 100 or so lbs. to lose, too.

I will look for your posts and am interested in tracking your progress, along with mine. I'm probably not a place to come for advice (yet!), but I can offer encouragement and emphathy -- I'm right there with you. Feel free to email or PM anytime.

WE CAN DO THIS!

Take care, and best of luck --

Adena

[Jerrica]

Hi Adena,

I look forward to hearing from you. We started on the same day the 13th thats funny. Thank you for your comments. I would really like to keep up with your progress as well. Hopefully we can encourage each other. It looks like I found my buddy on here. We have even lost the exact amount of weight so far, lol

[Adena]

Okay, so you are as new as I am, yet you already figured out how to post a graphic next to your name... how'd you do that? I tried to follow the directions, but no luck!

How ya doing on your motivation today? How was your weekend? I'm doing okay. Am getting a little bored w/ my food b/c I'm not doing the work/putting forth the effort to try/make new things. I only lost one pound over the weekend -- a little disappointing, but I'm pretty sure it's because I didn't drink my water and probably didn't eat enough (RARELY a problem for me, but between not being really hungry and being bored with allowable foods, I just didn't have the urge). So, I'm trying hard to more closely follow the rules...

We can do this, we can do this, we can do this!

[Blackdiamonds77]

Girl, I know what it's like to hide from the world b/c of being embarrased by weight gain! I'm still doing it. This is the right place for you. I'm on induction day 6 and if you keep coming back here, you are going to have the support you need to get through hard times. I have put a lot of stress on relationships w/ friends b/c I don't want to go out anymore, people will see how fat I've gotten. It's time to take your life back.
You can do this. It really works! Staying involved on the board is really important, people are here to support one another's journeys. We understand each other.

[Jerrica]

Blackdiamonds I love your mantra, lol