Healing from the Inside and Outside....

[Debismyname]

Hi everyone, my name is Debbie (Deb) and I'm a 32 year old female from Australia. This is my first entry on the bulletin board and I wanted to introduce myself and share a portion of my story.

From the time I was 15, I struggled with my weight....a disfunctional home life (from when I was 3) led to self-blame and depression. Not knowing any better, I coped through food and for almost 11 years, I was severely underweight. Eventually I overcame that but because the feelings underlying my behaviour were still there, I started to eat....and eat....and eat....and before I knew it I was obese. The opposite extreme.

I have been obese for almost 6 years now and whilst I have lost weight....I have gained it right back and more. It has taken a long time but I now realise that the weight was and is a symptom for me....an effect rather than a cause. I now understand that the core/ original problem has to do with the feelings underneath. The bad feelings and self-blame drove me to destruction time and time again.

I either ate in a way that was killing me or dieted in a way that was killing me....either way was extreme and neither way nurtured me and my feelings. I won't go on about all of this because I'm not sure that it is the appropriate forum but at the same time I just wanted to share in case it helps anyone else who feels the same.

I am here today because I have seen Atkins work for me in the past (its a great, satisfying and effective plan) and i know it can again. It didn't work permanently last time because I did it to extreme and didn't start to work on healing my feelings at the same time. This time I am armed with a better understanding.....a new purpose (I am lucky to have a wonderful man in my life)....and with faith in God that whilst it might be a slower achievement this time....it will be permanent. This time it will be a healing from the INSIDE as well as from the OUTSIDE.

I look forward to sharing with you all along the way, gaining inspiration from you and seeing us all develop through the journey of success.

May God bless you and your families....and thank you for listening/ reading.

Love and hugs
Deb

[MustLose80]

Hello Deb, I am Pamela. Out of curiosity, what is the V, or checkmark, in front of yours and some others names? Anyway, it is nice to meet you. I am new here today as well and will be posting often. I wanted to tell you that I know you will make it, because you are armed with understanding. I am going to make it too. I have to. I hope we can encourage each other along the way. Congratulations on your new guy and best wishes. Talk again soon.

[Debismyname]

Hi Pamela

Thanks for your reply....on my end here it says that the 'v' or check mark against my name stands for 'view first'. I think its there because my message was unread when you clicked on it and because you are the first person to view it.

Hope that helps

Yes you can do it....we can both do it....I will pray for all of us here and with eachother we'll get through no matter how long it takes.

Take good care and thanks again for writing
Deb

[2big4mysize]

welcopme to ADBB and back to Atkins. we have an emotional eaters forum you casn check postings in and post some yorself for some support of thast issue of your Atkins too.

So what you doing for your mandatory exercise part of your Atkions? come check out all the exercise chasllenges and pick some you like for added motivation and fun doing that part of Atkins.

Doing Atkins correctly with all the phases gives us good practice for living the rest of our lives as goalies.

[sillygirl]

Hi Deb! Welcome to the board. Do you have a copy of the 2002 Edition of DANDR? It's really important that you have a thorough understanding of how this way of eating works. Please read around the induction forum for additional information! This is not a diet, rather it's a lifestyle change. Once you get going, you will see how easy it is to eat healthy, eat lots and lose weight too! I wish you all the success in the world!

[Debismyname]

Thanks sillygirl and 2big4mysize....your pointers are invaluable and I will check out the additional forums suggested. As for exercise, when I've been committed and 'on track' I do anywhere between 1 - 2 hours of cyclying/ walking a day....sometimes even more. But then there is the times I am not so committed where I won't go anywhere near a bike or walking track/ treadmill. Again it has been an all or nothing thing with me.

As for the copy of the book I have, I think it is either printed in 2002 or 2004, I will see tonight (I left it at home today and I'm at work right now....its 9.35am here) and let you know.

I have to admit that I am nervous about the beginning because I get really strong cravings and negative thoughts that chip away at me at times. The struggle for me is in trying to take each day and each weigh result as it comes rather than predicting/ calculating and expecting certain results by certain 'deadlines' my frustration and mind set. This time I want to focus on the eating 100% but also the self-talk that has in the past set me up to fail....

I think I'm writing too much so I'll end here but before I do I just want to say thank you for this bulletin board....it gives so much strenth and is like a lifeline to many.....I look forward to it being my lifeline too....especially through the hardest times.

God bless you all and I can't wait to get to know you more and more...



Love Deb
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[sillygirl]

Originally Posted by Debismyname

I have to admit that I am nervous about the beginning because I get really strong cravings and negative thoughts that chip away at me at times. The struggle for me is in trying to take each day and each weigh result as it comes rather than predicting/ calculating and expecting certain results by certain 'deadlines' my frustration and mind set. This time I want to focus on the eating 100% but also the self-talk that has in the past set me up to fail....


Love Deb
x

Oh Deb! Don't you worry! You just come here often, and particularly if you feel like you're caving to craving! You will be amazed at how this group will pull together for you and help keep you on track. If you don't believe me, please check the past couple of pages on Saty's journal. The people around here are completely there for you. You can totally do this!

Saty's Page: http://www.atkinsdietbulletinboard.c...619#post542619

Also, if you do yourself a really clean induction, I predict within one week's time you will no longer be craving anything but atkins friendly foods.

[Debismyname]

Thanks so much Sillygirl !

You give me a lot of hope and I'm very grateful....I will check the link out that you sent...I'm sure that will make me feel better too

Thank you once again...I will try my best to do a clean induction and be reasonable with portions/ exercise etc and see how I go....

Deb
xo

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