Just went clothes shopping

[deelytful1]

Oh Dear. I hate clothes shopping nowadays. I also hate mirrors. Just bought a new house with a huge 2 sink bathroom and wall to wall mirror and when I get out of the shower I avoid any and all eye contact with it.
Shopped at lane Bryant thinking the clothes would conceal the fat but I forgot that they celebrate the plus size figure. Everything I bought makes me look huge. Maybe that could be because I am huge?
I've struggled with my weight forever...up and down and up and down. Fat kid and teen. Skinny twenties and early thirties due to starving myself and diet pills.
Sigh, 8 years ago I was at 135 and full of muscle due to Atkins and constant working out. 8 years later, I'm back again weighing more than I did when I was pregnant. (200 lbs.)
We lost my son's Dad 4 years ago and I spent the last 4 years sleeping too much, eating too much and drinking way too much beer & wine.
The pity party is officially over!!!!!!!
I watched a Dr. Wayne Dyer special last week and he reminded me that we come from nothing and return to nothing (metaphorically speaking). Let go and let God. The in-between is up to us.
I WILL get healthy and I WILL start to enjoy my life!
I've been on induction for a week and have not had a drink and I feel great. That's what scares me. When I feel happy I start to think life's too short not to eat and drink and enjoy myself. <-----and that's the problem. My whole life, fat or thin, fun came in the form of ice-cream, good food, a big dinner out or a couple of beers during football or a couple of bottles of wine and a party.
Hope with this site and all your help I can stick to this WOE for life and get fit and active physically and emotionally!
Thanks for listening to me rant!
Denise

[*Emma*]

My whole life, fat or thin, fun came in the form of ice-cream, good food, a big dinner out or a couple of beers during football or a couple of bottles of wine and a party.

hey thats my idea of fun too(plus a few other things )! its still possible, even on atkins.... just gotta work your way thru the rungs!


You can do this, welcome to ADBB! Good luck on your journey!

[Evermind]

Welcome back. Come over to the Second Time Around forum. We're all in the same place. And together, we're pushing ourselves and each other to health and vibrance.

C'mon!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Lynsey]

Welcome back, you can do it. I could relate to some of what you wrote, particularly the part in regards to the alcohol. While I would not consider myself an alcoholic, I have always considered myself a maintenance drinker, drinking about 4 times per week. That is usually the hardest part for me, giving up my Coors Light and Margaritas, as I've never been much of a sweets eater. But this time around I haven't had the slightest craving, and the only thing I have done differently then every other time is I have found something I am passionate about. For me that's my kayaking. When I think I want a drink, I think how much better I feel when I go for a paddle instead. With 5 kids between 5-21, its been years since I've felt free to find myself and my own passions, and I strongly suggest that you try to find yours as you are starting again. The way of eating is just one portion of the bigger way of life, which needs to include nurturing yourself, your dreams and desires. Also, as for clothes shopping, have you tried Fashion Bug? That's my favorite, not only does it have the larger sizes as long as we need them, but you can also find yourself drifting over to the smaller sizes we still dream about, and you'll still be able to shop there when you hit goal. Good luck and welcome back.

[CATBLUE]

Sigh... I remember doing that. After my divorce I got really thin.. I don't know what I weighed but my size 3 leather skirt was loose. I started to look bad. I just couldn't eat. Food actually hurt. Then one day it occurred to me.. "ulcer?". Sure enough I did have one. A few years later I was depressed and eating any darn thing I wanted to feel good. And boy did I eat. When I found myself at 198 I suddenly woke up. I started getting some exercise and changing my eating habits.. after a few years I was down about 35 pounds... but it was slow and hard. Then my cousin told me about Atkins. I bought the book. I started doing it.. I hit the low 140's quickly and maintained that for years. I met my husband and strayed good through out our dating... then we got married.. Fro some reason eating that wedding cake triggered a non stop binge.. Now two years later I was up to 177. So I'm back and as of today I'm at 162... I started back on August first. I keep thinking about all the things in life a want to look and feel good for. That gives me the added strength to stick to it. Well, at least so far.

I think you can do it.. If I can then you can....

[apple]

Welcome to the board!

I hear ya on the shopping thing. I hated doing it, especially when I use to worship the people who created Lane Bryant (LB). I had moments thanking God that I didn't go in with my bra on backwards because sometimes it felt like I couldn't get anything to fit right.

Hang in there! Keep your focus and you'll be saying bye-bye to LB and hello to a new you

[sallyseachange]

Warm welcome Denise! Glad to have you join our Atkins family. Really happy that you're feeling great after a short while on Atkins again...but there's no need to feel scared: Emma is right... it's just a question of working your way through the rungs, and then you can really enjoy so much! Hang in there for a while... it's worth it!

Post lots and keep us up to date with your progress. We're behind you 100%!

[deelytful1]

Thanks so much you all. It means alot! It's nice when other people share your misery and your joy! I will definitely keep you all posted and I'll try and be as active as possible on the boards!
HAGD!

[fowlergirl]

Welcome Denise,

I also have wall to wall mirrors in my bathroom. I used to avoid them. Now I am excepting of where I am and hopeful of where I'm going. Hang in there. Good luck.

[sillygirl]

Originally Posted by deelytful1

I Hope with this site and all your help I can stick to this WOE for life and get fit and active physically and emotionally!
Thanks for listening to me rant!
Denise

Hi deelytful1! Welcome to the board. You don't need hope, you just need to eat properly and the rest will come. Of course, the encouragement and friendship of the people on the board will help as well. You've done it before, you can do it again! I will look forward to seeing your around.

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