embarassing comeback

[Maka]

Girl, you could have been writing the story of my life! I joined the site this October 2007 but had done Atkins for about six months at the start of the year and had come down from Size 22 to 16/18. Then my marriage ended abruptly and I fell apart. I'm back to Size 22, weigh more than I did when I was a 22 back then and yesterday, told myself: what better opportunity to re-focus than the start of a new year.
So tomorrow I begin 14 days of induction although I know already that I want to stay on extended induction until I am Size 16...second time round, but this time it's all about me.
I really prefer to guage myself using my clothing size and I want to be a Size 14: that's healthy and good for me.
Currently I weigh 230llbs...ouch! That hurts all right!
Thank you for sharing your story...will you be my buddy?

[fat2fine]

Thank you all for your encouragement and support. This forum is just what I need. And yes, Maka, I would love to be your buddy. I need one. Like I said before I don't have fat friends, no one understands. I'm gonna start a journal and ease around to STAC. Thanks again guys!

[OzLover]

Welcome back to ADBB...excellent life choice. Thanks for sharing your story. Good for you on wanting to start a journal!! Post often, ask questions, join some challenges & most importantly read DANDR(2002 version). Keep the book close by for referral & inspiration!!!

Welcome fat2fine!

[Hopeful1]

I think as you read we can all relate. I feel like I'm heading in that direction and it scares the crap out of me I've been doing rather poorly due to horrible health issues (tonsils adenoids surgery removed in nov) and massive food poisoning/C diff infection all this month. Its really hard to stay on track like this. So I feel your pain so much! I'm the same way the only ppl noticing/commenting are family because thats basically all I see and I see how proud they are and some (not all) almost ready for me to fail. Mine is 100% mental I am definetly sabatoging myself I wish I knew why.

I can't tell you what to do since I am too struggling but I can say I support you and understand the trials. I also need "fat" friends. I want someone who is in the same boat that also wants to change. My problem is most of the fat friends/family I have don't want to change so theres no one who gets it, PLUS I live in a house with possibly the skinniest people on earth. (my husband and daughter) They can EAT ANYTHING and do eat 24/7 and not gain a lb. Its so hard sitting here watching people "snack" all the time. AHHH!

Good Luck with your journey, the best thing I can say is we KNOW this woe works!!! we've seen it first hand. So what do we have to lose keeping it up but ourselves (shrinking that is)

[stephbob]

There are so many posts of encouragement here, it's actually bringing a tear to my eye! fat2fine, you have got my mind down to a T. What you have written is exactly how I feel and it has brought me nothing but misery and depression this year.

2008 is just around the corner, make a fresh start and focus on this. We all will, together. Everytime you think you can do it yourself, everything you see a piece of food you would consider eating that you shouldn't, think about your goal, and how not eating that will not kill you, but eating it will offset you for day, weeks, maybe even months, and its just not worth it. Think about how depressed you are at this weight, and use that you spurr you on.

We are all in this together, you're not alone and never will be in this, everybody is either there, or has been - we can all sympathize with you