Ugh, here I am again.

[Esteliana]

Go ahead and be as cruel as you can possibly be. I did a disappearing act for, oh lets say....7 months almost? And with those 7 months I haven't been doing this way of life, due to lonliness, depression, and whatever else, I've gained 15 pounds and now I weigh....230 pounds! I had sworn to myself that I would never...and I mean NEVER be over 200 lbs, yet I am... And I blame myself entirely for not sticking to this way of life when I was doing such an awesome job.

What's changed this time?

I've learned a lot about myself these past few months and I have realized if I can put my mind into doing something and actually acheiving that goal, then I can do anything. I have the potential to do weight, I've just been lazy. Of course, I have finally gotten situated at my new job and I am very happy for where I am today, job wise. I'm working as an EMT for an ambulance comapny and I couldn't be any happier.

But I'm not all that happy. I do have this weight problem that I need to take care. I've looked through every picture of me and I realized that I look absolutly disgusting. No more of that. Starting 7/7/2008, I will change my life and do this for the rest of it. I know I Have said that many times before, but now I am serious about it because losing weight and being healthy is something that I really want right now. I'm single and there is NO possible way a guy would ever want to be with a fat girl like me. I realize that now.

And why 7/7/2008? And not now? Well, I have to get all the food I need, and of course 7 is a lucky number for me, so I want to start on a day that would be lucky because of the double 7's and everything. =) And this time I will make it through.

So go ahead and be as mean as possible and kick me in the butt because I most certainly need it.

Always and forever,

Bekka

I've missed all of you and I can understand if you're mad at me.

Uh...lol, 666? That's how many posts I've had on this site? Okay! 666 is an awesome number for me nonthe less. It doesnt mean anything, really.

[chinadoll]

Welcome back Becca. No butt kicking here. We've all had our lapses at one time or another. Here's hoping 7 is your lucky number and you have a great clean induction with a healthy whoosh to go with it.

[SueSue1212]

WELCOME BACK!!!
Glad to have you with us, let us help you!!!
SueSue1212

[sallyseachange]

Welcome back! Not mad. Not into butt kicking... just happy to see you return to your Atkins "home" and happy to know that very soon you'll be happier with yourself.

You can do it!

[joee5]

Welcome back. I also dont like to kick dirt on someone when they are down. Stay focused and motivate yourself and be strong enough to resist temptation. God Bless, Joe

[Trisha001]

Welcome back Becca!
T~

[Elsie150]

You can do it!!

[Esteliana]

Awwww! Thank you everyone! Sorry it took ages for me to get back to you. I was at work all day yesterday and man, it was really busy!! Holy sugarsnaps! I didn't have one break for myself yesterday and I literally passed out when I came home. It was nice to sleep for a very long time and it's even nicer that I have today off. ^_^

Can't wait til I can start this next week. =) I realized that it's just food. Who cares if it's boring or not? All the body wants is satisfaction of the hunger pang it feels, doesn't matter what you're eating. =P Gotta keep thinking that way. Ya ya! Won't get bored, I hope. At least I love veggies. <3

-Bekka

[liv]

Bekka,
I remember you. So glad to see you back. I wondered what happened. Glad to hear about the job.

[julirama723]

Welcome back, Esteliana!