I guess I'm actually going to just post and see if that helps!

[shelbyquinn03079]

Hi there, I've been a reading this board for years and used to post way back in the day but haven't in a looong time.

Let's see, a little about me first. I am a 35 year old mother of two small children. I have a 4 year old little girl and a 2.5 year old little boy. I have been with my fiance for 8 years and he is loves me exactly the way I am...the problem is I don't!

I will try and make this somewhat quick. I was thin my whole life really (other than 20 pnds here and there) without having to worry too much about it until I ruined my body with diet pills, babies and age-lol. I was 30 when I really started to get heavy and its been that way ever since.

I can really just start with current day so I don't make this thing a book. My main problem is I bounce all over the place with diets and can't seem to stick to any one. I guess too much info has frozen me from doing anything at all. There are pros and cons to almost anything and if you know enough about any of them you can talk yourself into or out of any diet depending on your mood.

I did Body for Life last year and started getting really good results BUT it was slooooow and life stresses happened and I fell off. It is low fat but I have read that it is low fat/low carb on posts but that isn't the case. From what I read it seems to be very similar to lifetime which would explain why the weightloss is so slow.

In january myself and 6 (yes I said 6 lol) of my friends all joined Weight Watchers together. The same thing happened, I was fine and doing well for a few months and then fell off. Out of the 7 of us only one lasted actually but she has lost 70 pounds and did great! I just find this as one more reason to kick myself because she got all that weight off and I have done NOTHING! I did ok with WW at first but counting every little thing got VERY tough, especially when cooking meals for a family. I am also living with family right now so trying to control how much of this and that I eat is even more difficult.

Now with atkins, I have tried and tried and never get past the first week. I am not a veggie girl and have texture issues so I get sick of the same textures very quickly. When I get to the difficult part I also talk myself out of atkins and into yet another diet. I tell myself that I probably won't lose more weight then my WW friend so I might as well do that and eat what food I chose etc. Fact is that some say its faster some don't, some say you lose more inches, some way its 6 one and half dozen another. I'm just trying to figure it all out really.

I have made the commitment to try again starting tomorrow. I'm making a deal with myself to give it a month and take it from there. I know it will be for life but I first have to convince myself that its the best plan to accomplish my goals! One step at a time as they say.

Anyway, thanks for listening and I'm going to give it a go....again

[charene]

good luck!

[DLS]

Shelby,
I do wish you luck. I know right where you're at. I would hate myself for having that bowl of cereal (cereal killer here) late at night while watching television. Then I'd eat it again the next night and in the middle of the day for a snack. Problem was that my bowl was more like a trough! It would easily hold 4 cups of cereal!
I would avoid public situations. Didn't want family (whom I haven't seen in years) to come visit because they would be in total shock at what I had become. A huge version of what they remembered. Even though I was a semi-active person I never lost weight, ever. I would even go on a 1,000 cal a day diet. THAT sucked!
So here I am. On my third week of induction. Scared to weigh in tomorrow, but scared not to. I just know I have to change for the better. For me, my kids, my husband and my God. I know He doesn't want me to continue on the path I was on.
It is hard as heck! I won't lie. When I cook them something I used to love to eat; I still want it. But I don't eat it. I make something with lots of flavor for myself and a lot of times they look and my plate and say "You got the good stuff!" LOL
Stick around the boards. The folks here are great! They have really been there for me.

God Bless and good luck.

Donna
200/184/160
start date 8-27-08
10,000+ steps a day & stabilizer ball
64+ ounces of water a day
Participating in Weigh? No Way! Challenge 5

[shelbyquinn03079]

Thanks so much and wow do I relate. You hit the nail on the head! I AVOID places and people so much. I have missed two wedding in the past two years and they were cousins I haven't seen in forever. This of course, is the reason I missed them. My dad died last year and that put me back in touch with my other cousins and aunt that I haven't seen. They have asked and asked to see me and I stall and stall and now they don't ask anymore. We all know that "shock" that comes on faces of people who haven't seen us. I hate that look! Even the people who are nice and would never "say" anything don't realize they are giving the "look". As stated I'm really not used to this person I have become and its difficult. I don't know who I am anymore and I really can't waste another year. I am determined that this time is "the" time.

Thanks for the luck you guys!

[brightstar7801]

Hey! I'm glad you're here. I am almost finished with my two week induction. I don't think I can stay on induction forever I just miss too many veggies and the like. I have a weigh in tomorrow and I'm scared and feel like I haven't done anything! But please hang in there, come here to vent. I haven't yet but I know my time is coming though.

[laura1971]

Hi guys,
Im almost done my induction phase. I may stay on it a little longer but havent quite decided yet. I also relate to how you guys feel about public outings and so fourth. The fellow im seeing has sprung a suprise for me. He told me 3 weeks ago that he has planned a weekend away for us the weekend of my birthday. (oct 10-13) Were going with another couple. Im very excited. Ive been going through my closest trying to find clothes that dont make me look big. Anyways....since first day of induction, im down 12 pounds. I think this is a good start. Anyways good luck to you. We can do this!
Laura.