This is my introduction.

[Janvier]

I've decided to make a big change in my life and lose the weight that has always brought me down. I've been severely overweight my whole life and as you must know, people aren't very kind. I started to become overweight in first grade and realized it only after a class mate said to me, "My mom says that you're chubby."
After that it never really got better, only worse. If any of you were overweight as children, you know how cruel the other kids can be. Even their parents as well.
I've always wanted to be able to wear nice clothes and be happy with myself. It's a vicious cycle, you're depressed because you're overweight and you eat because you're depressed.
I'm just really sick of hating myself so much. Every time I look in the mirror I want to cry.
It hurts to even be uncomfortable around my boyfriend because he's 128 pounds and I'm 179 pounds. Sometimes, I feel less compelled to lose weight because he tells me that he loves me just the way I am. But he also tells me he just wants me to be happy with the way I look. I need to listen more to the latter.
I'm determined to lose this weight once and for all. When I was younger my mother took me to children's hospital where they recommended a low carb diet. I lost 20 pounds in about two months. Looking back I don't know why it took me so long to try out a low carb diet again.
So, I'm ready to lose this weight the way I know will work.
Thank you for your time.

[Asclepius]

Bonjour et bienvenue, Janvier!

Your post really highlights the emotional strings we have tangled in our weight and body image. Your boyfriend has it right.

You'll find this forum a great support so bring it all to the table. Best wishes on your journey toward healthy happiness.

[gman]

Janvier I am sure you have read that this can be transformational.
A couple simple guidelines: You need to be honest with yourself and help others here.
By being honest you will get down to the facts of what works and why.
By helping others you will benefit them and before long you will be the master teaching the student.
You're off to a great start on both counts!
When you think about it, it's not a bad deal for the upcoming transformation to the new you!
Keep us posted.

[Janvier]

Thank you both very much for the replies.
I certainly intend on being completely honest. I think this is the first time I've disclosed to anyone my true weight, ha ha.
One day down so far!

[fluffygirl]

Hi Janvier
I can feel your pain because I share your pain. I hope we both can loose this weight and keep it off.