Tired of living this way

[need2loselbs]

Hi,
I'm back again, I've started this woe countless times before only to end up failing by the end of week 1, sometimes even day 1, the last time I started Atkins, I lasted 11 days and lost 13 lbs. I was so excited and proud of myself for staying on it that long and losing so much weight in such a short time period. And then, in one stupid moment of weakness, I cheated, and alot of you know that cheating can lead to binging, and this time I binged and I binged and I'm still binging. I have the book laying somewhere in my room and still have only read one chapter of it. My goal is to go find my book, read it, front to back, and stick to Atkins by the book and lose weight and change my life.
I guess I've always known I was fat, but up until recently I didn't 'feel' fat, when I looked in the mirror, I knew I was large but it didn't really bother me because I didn't feel as if I looked the weight that the scale showed. Not sure if anyone else feels this way or not. But recently my clothes have been getting tighter and the weight gain is definatly starting to show. I've gained back those 13 lbs plus a few and I'm sure alot of inches, since everthing is tight. I no longer feel comfortable in my own skin and my weight is really taking a toll on my life. I don't go anywhere with friends anymore, I feel so uncomfortable at work I want to just give up and quit my job, but obviously that is not an option. My dating life is, lol, wait a minute, what dating life. This is a big reason I want to change my life around and lose weight and get healthier. I want to find someone to share my life with and raise babies with, but I don't feel comfortable enough to even begin to start a relationship let alone even come close to getting pregnant and giving birth. The thought of all those doctors staring at my fat butt during labor makes me want to throw up, I'd feel sorry for them....lol....
Lately, I have also thought about going to a therapist or something of that sort about how I've been feeling. I have very bad anxiety, and I think I also am suffering from depression. But, I think that maybe I have anxiety and depression, atleast in part, because of my weight issue, and by doing atkins hopefully I can fix all three problems, or atleast make them a little better.
One question I do have and it's my biggest issue, the food, I get soooo bored on Atkins. Here's what I eat basically: bacon, sausage, eggs, hamburger, cheeseburgers, chicken breasts, celery, dt. soda, water, salisbury steak, stuff like that. Please don't give me any nasty food ideas because I'm sooo picky and I'll never even try them cause I'm so stubborn.lol. But anyways, my problem is I HATE vegetables with a passion, the only things I can stand to eat are stuff like lettuce (minimal), celery, corn and really nothing else. Is there a vitamin that I can take to help me with this problem so I still get the nutrients I need. Believe me I've tried vegetables and I can't eat them, they make me literally sick so I'm just wondering if you can give me some good advice on a vitamin I should take, also is there vitamins I should be taking besides for vegetables, ( if that makes sense) lol....

Anyways, I'm gonna get my big butt up and go find my book and start some reading and hopefully within the next week I can get my groceries bought and get the ball rolling towards a healthier, happier, slimmer life....

Thanks for reading all my random rambling and I can't wait to join you all on this great adventure called Atkins....
Happy Holidays

[LuckyD]

Hello Need and Welcome,
I know you said you do not want recipes and that you hate veggies, but here is the thing. For success on this WOE you are going to have to learn to love those veggies. That said there are many different ways to prepare them that they are absolutely delicious. You are going to have to trust me/us on this one. The faux mashed potatoes made with cauliflower is yummy, just to name one. Checkout the recipes section and be brave a give something a try. Some people who did not grow up eating veggies have a serious aversion to them, but if you give them a fair shot you will develop a taste for them and learn to love them. THERE IS NO PILL that will substitute. Veggies provide important nutrients and fiber and they fill you up. Good luck, hang in there, and remember, veggies are your friends.